a little of this and that

soooooo,  i've neglected my blog lately.  SERIOUSLY neglected it.    i've posted a couple of notes on FB but then deleted them after a few minutes.  here lately I just havent felt comfortable baring my soul like that.  I used to have no problem at all saying what I thought on myspace blogs,  but on FB while I like it better than myspace,  i'm always afraid of offending somebody.  some of my relatives with my crass language,  my far left and far right friends w/my middle of the road disdain for anybody who can't live and let live.   my stepchild with my opinion of her mother,  my oldest son with how dealing with him is sometimes too much for me.  and of course my relatives and friends that like that other Oklahoma football team. :)

and this is going to worry alot of you reading this,  but I've just lost the urge to argue anymore.  yeah,  I know,  me not argue????  I dunno,  I guess arguing with my kids on a daily basis has just taken the fun out of it for me.  

on to other things,  our lives are extremely busy these days,  Caden is in football,  Bobby is showing goats every weekend,  Christian is a senior this year .  it seems like i'm always needing to be several places at once,  and almost daily i'm paying a new fee , dues, or something monetary to do with school or activities. 

as we are rolling into fall i'm seeing a case of be careful what you wish for,  i've been looking forward to fall since well,  last fall ended.  now its upon me and there is so much going on. 

have you started your christmas shopping yet?  i've only got a few things and i'm usually halfway done by now,  I usually have my christmas cards done in August,  this year I havent even picked out the cards yet.  my house is cleaner than it normally is,  not all the way clean,  but much cleaner than normal.  not sure how that has happened,  I think I just got sick of not being able to find stuff and realized I can't do it all myself so i've actually started to release control a little bit,  starting to delegate.  I'm even going to have Bryan pick up gift bags for the gifts we got for 2 bday parties we are attending this weekend, *GASP*  I never let anybody pick out the gift bags!!!  whats next?  I let somebody else pick out the christmas wrapping paper???  no,  I don't think I can do that.  yes,  i'm a OCD control freak.   I know its wrong to expect other people to do things the exact way I would,  (they don't by the way),  so I usually do it myself,  and if I don't have time to do it or feel like doing it,  it goes forever not being done.

you would never guess it looking at my house,  but I have to have things perfect,  it stresses me out if they arent,  so I have learned to block out the fact that something is out of order until I can put it that way.  our pantry has to be organized a certain way, baking items go in one section,  breakfast items go together, boxed side items go together,  canned goods all go together.  the storage cabinet in our bathroom is organized as well,  i have storage baskets w/medicines separated into groups- stomach meds- pain relievers- allergy and cold/flu meds- and first aid.  

ok,  thats enough of my OCD for today. :)

and yeah,  its 5:30am,  my husband is about to get up for work,  if he stops hitting the snooze button on the alarm clock.     I havent been alseep yet,  I actually read 2 books tonite,  i've started reserving books I want to read on the library's website (using my moms library card ) and having my mom pick them up for me.  a new batch of reserves are ready to be picked up so I have to get these to her so she can return them.    just read all of Tess Gerrittson,  now i'm about to start the Sookie Stackhouse books.  

anyways,  not sure if I will post this on FB,  so unless you follow my blog you may not ever read this.  unless you stumble onto it by accident.  you really should follow it,  someday I may blog about YOU!  :)

til next time (hopefully wont' be as long)
A.